Wednesday, October 25, 2006

re: "emotionally fragile"

Hmm well i posted that the other day and I suppose I am,it's kinda hard to explain but I'll try to. I don't need anyone to beat me up I pretty well on my own. For example I've been beating myself about the head because I screwed up when I swapped hardware out a week past saturday and the Power Supply went or appeared to, having it checked over still. So i had to reinstall windows but i was cracking up at having to forced into reinstalled because the "smart" O/S that is XP can't handle massive hardware changes only little ones. Im not gonna fire up my Network Attached Storage(NAS) device im gonna get someone else to do that as it's doing my head in, it won't see the almost 500gb over the 2 Hard disks that are in it as drives...
I do sometimes wake up and wonder if it's worth it any more. I was all for quiting the net totally - I was gonna make one last parting post on here and then just leave..
I couldn't so I left it, someone said something that made me think and it then struck me today they were right. Who was that person well it was "shyandquiet" although she is neither.. I got the big hard assed mental slap I required. Thank you shy :)

Yours
Chemically imbalanced and other things

G

P.S. I wasn't gonna mention it but I got some artwork from this lady and it's great was going to be a birthday present but I don't know now, i don't know if I'll be able to find a frame to do it justice in time but I'll try if not it's 1 christmas gift for a sister in a million.. ** Hugs Sharon ** Thank you.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Hey y'all Im back

I've been quietly catching up on some peoples posts i still got catching up to do. Im doing okay.
Heather the last post i read of yours made me think real hard. What cna I say the best way to describe me is "Emotionally Fragile" Im serious, I may look dead tough and mean, I may look like I'm meaner than a junkyard dog to borrow a phrase a good friend of mine uses shy but that she isn't once she knows you :)..
I found out today that okay it's a big state but It's a small world I know 4 people in WV now, the 4th is my good friend Patrick aka Tmbr Wolf I've known him a good while and didn't know this till know and well I think I can safely say I've chatted with him for 5-6 yrs. Go visit and swing by shy's pages they'll both appreciate the visit. I won't say which county in WV he's in but it's in the south.
So dear friends who are few and far between I think I'll sign off now.
Take care and catch ya later.

G

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

I'm Alive......

I'm alive...
My Computer is back up and running, behaving now too.
I didn't have to replace much - just the Power Supply as it went dead on me. I've taken this opertunity to clear out all the old crap I had kicking about, in readyness for all the NEW crap that will no doubt be getting install via windows update..
I'm in the midst of re-install all my applications so It will be a while before Im fully back up to speed just thought I'd let you know..
I've too many apps to mention to reinstall which is why I was reluctant to have to do this.. 98 was so much easier to do this on, you lost nothing..

So I'll see you around..

G

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Just not My day :(

Here I am it's like 2am Sunday morning and Im writing a blog post..
Now not the post I'd been musing about yesterday after I read something that may appear at a later date once I remember exact what it was, it's been a long week!
I am not however on my now PC, Im on my backup PC (god bless backups) Okay I have more than 1 PC but I have MY PC and 3 others, if you get my drift... Someone I know from Free-DC was kind enough while doing a "spring" clean to send me some of his older parts (IF only I'd know I'd never have gotten that new mobo / memory - but I can still use that :D). My car was due it's Annual Checkup (Read MOT for those in the UK) and well I figured a few minor points a bit of welding here and there but not quite just that, one of my front spring is going so it's booked in for next weekend to get sorted.. To go cheer myself up I go to a mates and see if he's in, and have a coffee or 4 :P I end up with a DVD writer, some blank DVD discs and a Virtually Silent PSU - which doth not fit in the case style I have :-S. I get back and proceed in an orderly fashion to shutdown my nice machine, take out the mainboard and replace it with one that had just been shipped to me complete with memory and CPU + HS/ Fan to match.. I boot it up windows XP goes "NO!" and reboots, I get the "safe mode options list" I choose one, it does the same and just sits at same place..
Time for XP Install CD... I get that out and try and get it up and running - alas nope I do manage to repair XP and try that no luck what so ever.. I think sod it replace it with old kit that I know worked with that Install of XP..
Well erm "no", "NO" and double "NO!", it boots up, coughs almost and reboots, I TRY to go back into windows CD at which point the machine switches OFF with out warning, no obvious reason why it shouldn't fire back up, no joy at all as you can probably imagine even although I know my stuff Im at the "mild PANIC" stage, thinking the worst - no life from system means either a) The CPU has expired (NO please don't let it be that not my faithful XP2600) or b) The Power Supply has gone , thankfully it was b) this is the point I discover that the new Silent PSU I got don't fit so I had to go borrow one from the same mate and I handed him the old one to see if he could repair it possibly. I get one it's a smaller capacity but it will do, I power up.. No Primary Hard Disc, the one with windows and all my applications and erm GAMES on.. I switch off, unplug a few things make sure it's bare minimum plugged in to get it running nope same thing.. The Drive hath died or ain't wanna play ball..
I've managed to get it "running" but well we'll see how long, copying as much as I can to other places, til i can get another drive to replace.
Wish me LUCK, I think I need some.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Anyone tell me what day it is?

I only ask as well im not really sure myself. Why may you ask well lets look at the facts:
Monday & yesterday I worked 4pm to midnight, today I worked 8am to 4pm now you do the math - 24hrs within the 48hour period (4pm to 4pm) I've been at work, go me..
To say I'm a little fuzzy would not entirely be too far off the mark.. I really Love covering other peoples shifts even if it is only so that my nice averaged out wage that was calculated on a week that is 2 1/2 more than Im doing now, you do the math it's not much but they company has to either a) recalc my average and rejig my pay cheque to match it or b) I do the extra hours to cover which I'd probably have to do anyway..
Roll on NEXT April when they are recalc'd - okay maybe less money but i won't be doing silly sh-tuff mind you I hope they won't need to recalc it down I may get a payrise depends on what work the company gets in as a whole...
The joy of it all...
Another thing is Im kinda glad I decided not to do the "autopilot" home trick as I'd proabably have had to pick bits of fox and rabbit out my bumper and other places (yuck!), oh I know my car has good brakes I was able to avoid both.. I was kinda wired so you can probably imagine the number of hours of sleep I got between approx 1am and 6:30am..
Roll on the weekend so I can get some rest, I hope!

Listening to: Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway - I Hate Myself For Losing You , Keane - Everybody's Changing Winamp 5.09 Random picks..

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Where do we go from here.....

Well the day I never thought I'd actually see has well happened...
Think back 2 1/2 years - I've posted about the "event" a few times but well the thing I never though would happen has indeed happened.
My parents got to see my nephew today, under a strict set of rules mind you which will be relaxed once my sister feels she can trust them again..
So any time they want to see connor is fine, as long as they 1) phone to make sure it's okay and 2) it's at her house until further notice. These rules are non-negotional..
Nephew didn't quite know what to do as well like last time they were all in same room was other sister's silver wedding anniversary and well it was like "not allowed".
I had an inkling this was happening when I got a call from my sister saying hang on I didn't mean to phone you, what's my other sisters number to which I said I don't know I'd need to check my phone which I was talking on at the time she went okay I'll just check mine.. I did think weird but I knew she'd been thinking about this and thought hang on why would hmm no and put it at back of mind.
Roll forward about 20-25 minutes other sister calls me saying parents might be a bit upset when I get home as they are getting to see nephew I went okay thanks for the warning..
Queue around 3:45 - sister calls me saying that all had went well, nephew was a bit strange, mother kept I don't know exactly how to describe it but "wringing her hands" I don't know how else to say that, dad kept giving sister strange looks.
Now both sisters in same room, my older sister is normally the quiet one was busy chatting away to cover the silence as mother didn't quite know what to say, a first not really..
My parents are downstairs at the moment "recovering". Who knows what will be next but OH boy are they in for a shook when he does eventually come down here and Im not in.... They won't be able to keep up...
I think that pretty much covers it can't think of anything else apart from hmm erm hmm interesting.....

G Dawg

Listening to: Buffy the Musical - Where do we go from here, My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the Black Parade Winamp 5.09 Random picks..

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Anyone see where the last week has gone?

Wow what a week I've had I know this is tuesday but between now and the last post it's been some week. Working hard at work which is good, what I don't like is when I find out I may as well have beaten my head off the proverbial brick wall as the bit of kit that's meant to work doesn't, gotta love it when people say oh well it's been back to the supplier 4 times and is still playing up! Thank god we had a unit on loan that we could put in place to get everything back up and running again until we get the other unit BACK from the supplier FULLY WORKING! I have been various other places as well just.
Now what can I say about saturday but erm can we go back to that one and START AGAIN!
Im not saying it was a particularly BAD day but having gotten up at 6:30 all week It would have been nice to get a longer lie in bed other than an extra Hour! I had my nephew to take to football and well I will only say this about it they lost 5 or was it 6 - 1 when the week before they won 3-0 they did play the match later than normal but that should have worked more in their favour it didn't of course my nephew started to lose it big time after they managed to put 3 past him and I couldn't go over and calm him down (see post about previous match darn ****ing asshat coach!) He calmed down in 2nd half but well erm half asleep is all I will say to most of the team. I looked forward to meeting up with my mate stu for a chinwag again, while he dropped of my new toy - Me got me some Network Storage now, think small box with Drives in it that attached to the network and thats it..
I then was informed did I remember I was helping pick up my other sister from the air port (and what time was the flight) I thought it was today but no SATURDAY! BANG went the plans I had of going to Racewall as well my father may as well wear shades at night, he'd probably see better!
Sunday was just crash and recover day so zippo got done.
Monday was a holiday at work so I was able to just pretty much relax, catch up on stuff, read the paper fully etc..
Today has been fun too, just HOPE when I go in tomorrow Morning that there are a few e-mails waiting for me with PRICES on them from companies I've asked to send me a QUOTE on stuff for if not me not gonna be a happy bunny!